January 21, 2008 at 4:52 pm (Spirituality)
I had a wolf/bear/fox with me the other day – I woke up and there he was – almost two of them, wolf and bear/cub but the wolf was more prevalant… they sat with me all day on thurs or fri – cant remember…
very nice gorgeous creatures – much comfort
i dont know if they ‘belong’ to me, but would be interested to know if anyone wants to claim them as their own.
January 21, 2008 at 3:29 pm (Family, Treatment, recovery)
well, im still alive.
the first thing is that after the 2nd day, i felt so FULL – like i was so full of fluid and drugs it literally felt like i was drowning in it. i was ok by about 4am on friday.
day 3 – the saline solution affects me.. which is odd cos it should be nuetral – the steroids are the same tho – and anti-nausea- makes me sick.. might be the speed they give it…
i still have my hair
sunday – first injection – 8am – so that when i start my 9am blood appointments this week it will be done before we go…i passed out – Nic was terrified i think
i take my lazaropam now which calms me down – the nurses reckon it was a stress/anxiety reaction
2nd injection was better -sobbed quietly before submitting to the lazaropam, felt better afterwards
from now on – injections are to be given in bed – twice daily to stimulate bone marrow
my legs are so sore
and i have no stamina – even sentences and paragraphs are beyond me
i cant walk from one end of my house to another with a pause less i lose momentum and collapse… my leg muscles hurt like ive been rock climbing – my chest hurts with heart palpatations – or not, just that im more aware of it, but i feel tight
the port is getting better – not so sore
ok – going now – tired – have a lil bit of work to do before i finish… may take a few attempts.
x
